Heartbreak Hill

This is a little intermission from the "Three-Letter Word" series.  I will return to it soon.

I don't know about you, but I was really moved by Coach Januzzi's chapel today.  Wow.  I began to think, how do we respond to a message like that?  What does God want to do in your life because of what you heard? 

I'd say we could start by considering: what 'heartbreak hills' are you facing right now?  Do you have some cruddy relationship issues going on?  With a friend, a family member, a boyfriend or girlfriend?  Do you have an absense in your life that is really difficult?  Maybe you lost a relationship or there's one you wish you could have, but never seems to happen.  Are you struggling with feeling good enough, smart enough, talented enough to make someone happy with you?  Have you faced some injury or setbacks in your life recently?  Maybe you can't even name your 'hill', but you just feel like something is not right in your soul.

Whatever it is, thank God for it.  I don't mean "like it."  This kind of Thank You is one done in faith.  In essence, you're saying, "God, I don't know why this is happening to me, but thank You for what you CAN do through this to make me more of who You long for me to be."  Let us never think that every 'heartbreak hill' is from God on purpose.  But we can believe that He will USE all those hills for good.  Like Paul said to his friends in Rome "all things work together for good, to them that love God and are called according to his purpose."

Keep a heart of honesty with God about your struggles, just like Coach Januzzi did.  And with a humble heart begin to say, "God make me new and change me as You carry me through this.  I hate this situation, but help me see how I can learn, even from this."

The Three-Letter Word-Part 4

Before specifics, let’s get perspective

As Christians we are quick to hand out rules.  It’s done with a good heart because we want to protect people and honor God with our life choices.  But we can easily become like the Pharisees who respected Old Testament laws, but, because they didn’t trust people to personally work out their life with God themselves, proceeded to create more rules.  This is something Jesus and other New Testament writers often criticized.  Instead, Paul writes in Ephesians 5:10 “Find out what pleases the Lord."

This requires you, yes YOU to come to a point of decision and say “I really DO want to please the Lord,” not just because you were raised that way (though that’s good), but because it’s time, as a growing person to say: this is MY relationship with God and I want to take it seriously.  Of course, it’s not about your sheer willpower.  You need to invite the Holy Spirit to help you, strengthen you, and guide you.  Yet, it’s good to say: my parents have carried the cross long enough for me.  Now I want to take up my cross and follow the One I love. 

At this point, now, you can engage the Lord about what pleases him, particularly in your sexuality.  This is going to be an ongoing process.  It will change as you change, but keep going.  Your goal is to learn how to build your fireplace.  Your fireplace may look different from others.  There was a time in my life when I needed to stop listening to non-Christian music.  It had too much of a hold on me.  So I ditched all my AC/DC stuff.  I thought everyone ought to do the same, but eventually I realized that this was God’s call for an area of weakness for me.  It wasn’t necessarily an area of weakness for others.  Also, I do listen to a good amount of music that isn’t necessarily Christian now.  It was God’s work for a time for me to have those parameters.  So stay in the game and keep walking with God.

So, how do I figure this out?  See you next time.

The Three Letter Word-Part 3

When I was in college, my parents let me bring my friend Mike on a ski trip we took to Colorado.  One night we all went to this restaurant at the top of a mountain.  It was really cool because you had to take a gondola to get there.  The restaurant was set up like an old time lodge with wood beams and a fire place.  But this wasn’t just any fireplace; it was enormous.  It had to be 12 feet tall and 6 feet wide.  The fire was awesome and frightening at the same time.  That’s a lot like our sexual desires.

Fire, like sexuality, is awesome, but can also be consuming.  I’m so glad we have fire!  But if it’s not managed it can destroy things like the wildfires in Colorado this past summer.  When it’s in your house you need to have a fire place.  When it comes to sexuality you need to manage it well.  There are three areas that need management: 1. Your personal sexual feelings and thoughts, 2. Your sexual feelings about other people, and 3. Your interaction with the opposite sex (whether acquaintances, friends, or a boy/girlfriend).  I’ll try to hit some of these in upcoming posts. 

The Three Letter Word-Part 2

Last time I wrote about a God-given process whereby we desire to grow in independence in our teen years, and that we need to manage it.  It’s not bad.  It just needs management.  The same is true of your sexual nature. 

                When Paul wrote to the Thessalonians he expressed his hope that “your whole body, soul, and spirit will be kept blameless until the coming of Jesus Christ.”  He’s not wagging his finger here.  Instead, he’s acknowledging God’s process of developing us throughout life (sanctification) isn’t just a spirit thing.  God’s glorious work in you involves your spirit, your soul (who you are), and your body.  It is not an accident that you have sexual drives.  God made you a sexual being.  It’s not even that you have a sexual part of you.  It is interwoven into your whole person.  You can’t separate your masculinity or femininity and still be you.  But, like all things good, it needs management. 

                Now some people don’t care and operate under the “if it feels good do it” concept.  These people can’t be helped.  If you want to jump off a cliff because it’s a great thrill, go ahead and enjoy the ride, but don’t expect the rest of us to clean up your mess.

                For the rest of us, we want to love God and others and it’s sometimes hard to figure out how our sexuality fits into this.  First, I want to dispel a myth: your sexual desires are not at war with you or your faith any more than your hunger for ice cream is at war with you.  They just need management.  Start out by giving thanks.  Thank God that he made other people really good-looking!  Thank him that he’s made an insatiable desire in you to eventually marry someone and know them on the most intimate levels emotionally, physically, and spiritually.  Even thank him for the desire to touch and be touched. 

                So, we need to start on this playing field, embracing what your creative and loving God has given you.  Paul said to Timothy, “Everything God created is good, and nothing is to be rejected if it is received with thanksgiving.”  In fact, in his critique against cults, he complains that “they forbid people to marry.”  Look through cults in history and you will often find those groups manipulating or forbidding one-on-one committed, married sexuality.  And finally, here’s the big kahuna: our Father explains Christ’s love for us by comparing it to a bride and a groom.  A bride and a groom at their wedding are excited to spend life together…and to get to the wedding night!  This has nothing to do with Christ having a sexual desire for us.  But God is saying, that intensity of desire that a groom has for his bride is a great picture of just how incredibly Jesus longs to be close to you.  Check out Ephesians 5. 

                This head and heart stuff is a crucial beginning.  Now what about the day to day?

The Three Letter Word - Part 1

“Welcome to the jungle, baby.  You gonna die!”  Anybody know that line from Guns ‘n Roses?  I was into them hard core when I was in 8^th grade.  I think that was the time in my life when I started to really be annoyed with my parents.  I didn’t like them telling me what to do and the whole bit.  So, one way I tried to bother them was to go into my room and crank up Guns ‘n Roses.   Not just any song by them, but especially the ones where Axl Rose dropped the F- bomb. 

                Now, parents don’t raise us to stay at home (at least they shouldn’t!).  They raise us to ultimately leave home.  They do a lot of that ‘annoying’ stuff because they want us to grow up and eventually be a respectable person.  God has also designed kids to gradually desire more independence as we move toward adulthood. 

                So, my feelings in 8^th grade were a good part of God beginning to move me toward gradual independence.  However, I was managing those feelings in a pretty stupid way.  There’s an interesting parallel here to…sex.

I heard from God

When I was a freshman I had Mrs. Muth as my English teacher.  One day we walked into class in 100B (yep, the same room I teach in now!), and she announced that we were going to have a large pop quiz.  As you can guess, we were startled!  She passed out the quiz and we all began diligently working.  I set my determination to get the solid grade I was used to getting.  The quiz was lengthy and had numerous essay and short answer questions.  In the midst of my furious writing, I noticed something disturbing: people around me were beginning to get up and turn in the quiz!

I was floored!  How could they have finished already?  I wasn’t even halfway done!  I dug in my heels and continued to write until I got to the last question.  In the directions it said, “Good job.  You’ve been listening to my advice to read all the directions before starting a quiz or test.  Leave this quiz blank and turn it in.”  Duuuuhhh.

Oddly enough, don’t we feel this way when it comes to God too?  We feel like we’re working hard to make this relationship work, but it’s so confusing.  Yet, all the people that talk about it in class, chapel, youth group, or church seem to have it figured out.  They talk so confidently about hearing God, having Bible verses jump out at them, or seeing what God is doing in their life.  It’s like being in my quiz story.  Everyone around you seems to know something that you don’t.

Well, here’s the good news: unlike my story, they don’t know either.  Often they use terms and rhetoric to talk like they understand it all, but relating to God is weird.  I think we all just need to get honest about it.  Once we acknowledge that, we can truly begin to settle into this thing called a relationship with God. 

I can talk confidently about my relationship with my wife because we have a long history of working through life together.  Just like this, you too can find a steady connection with the Lord as you learn to relate to Him in a way that is specific to you and your personality, but it takes time and honesty.  I guess I just want us to give up the illusion that it’s really easy to figure out.  It’s not.  So, let’s start from reality and embrace the mystery.